Wednesday, 20 July 2016

Work Hard, Play Hard

Although it's already semester break for me now, life has kept me busy anyway. I'm still working—Eid al-Fitri notwithstanding—and there are some campus events that I volunteered to be the committee of. Aside from that, there's Comic Frontier in less than 2 weeks and I'm not finished making anything that I want to sell. So...yeah. July also seems like the month for competitions. There are three already that I want to join but don't know when I'll have the time to work on that. God, sorry, I'm not trying to sound so whiny and ungrateful. Sometimes I just wish there are more hours in a day—but, really, anyone who doesn't know how to manage their time will say sh*t like this. That being said, I still manage to find/slip some time in to meet some friends and catch up. Work hard, play hard—isn't that how the saying goes? This past week I've been seeing some high school friends that I haven't seen in years—along with Cynthia, of course. It's not as bad as I thought it would be, but I really need some down time for myself for the rest of the month now.

thrifted shirt // old hat + dungaree (Germany) // old shoes // hand-me-down backpack // photos by Cynthia

Lately, I've been thinking a lot too about how more and more people seem to hate me. It's just been one misunderstanding after another. In fact, recently, I've also managed to start an argument—or get misunderstood—online on instagram. It wasn't brutal, I guess, but now I feel this tension with the person who misread me. It makes me rethink the whole concept of friendships and how fragile it could be. Just when you thought someone could understand you without uttering a single word, they turn back and spite you for something you didn't mean. Cynthia seems to think that plenty of people want to be my friends, but I just wouldn't let them. But that's not how I see it. I would disappear and no one would look for me—they would look for me to reach out to her!—and it may or may not be my fault. The way I see it, if someone wants you in their life, they will do whatever it takes to keep you there—no matter what you are to them. What do you guys think? Care to weigh in on this topic?

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Monday, 18 July 2016

Firu ♥︎ Visya: 6th ANNIVERSARY!!

Yesterday was Firu and my 6th anniversary! As per our involuntary tradition since 3 years ago, we didn't get to see each other on D-day this year too, but we managed to spare some time for a Skype session and celebrate our love. At this point, it just comes naturally that we're still together, but it still feels so hard to believe how far we've come and how awkward we were when we started out. This illustration is one of my dearest memories of us. It took me all day to finish it because of computer issues, which stress me out. In this day and age, it just feels like relationships are getting a bad rep, with articles like this popping up more frequently. But—I gotta tell ya—being in a meaningful relationship can keep someone sane. It gives you someone you can trust, someone who will teach you things you've never imagined before and someone who will support you—and trust me, it matters a great deal. Take all that into account, isn't it worth taking a leap of faith and jumping into one? I did six years ago and my life hasn't been the same since.

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